"She could never go back and make some of the details pretty. All she could do was move forward and make the whole beautiful."
That quote was written by Terri St. Cloud and it describes the journey so perfectly, doesn't it?
I have so many things in my life that I look back on and wonder why the hell it had to be the way it was. What could I have done differently?? Why can't I just go back in time and do it differently??
We all wish we could rewrite the story of the past. In fact, we wish it so badly that we have a hard time doing anything else. And this obsessing, this wishing... gives our power away to a moment in time that no longer exists.
The past is over. Gone. Non-existent. The only place it lives is in the memory. And painful as it is - torturous even - we are dedicated to keeping the memory alive. We feed the monster.
The flip side to that is when we do the same to the future. We have so many regrets from the past that we obsessively plan and try to control our future - to avoid ever being in such a dark hole again. But the future doesn't exist. It literally is nothing but a thought.
So where does that leave us?
The present. We are stripped naked of our power to change the past or grip the future, but we are unstoppable with the present moment. This should be the most empowering truth in your soul.
This is where all of your power lies.
So no, you can't go back, rewrite the past and make it pretty. But you can pick up your pen and write for today. You can write for today about what you will think about, what you will do, where your joy will come from and who you are... today.
Now pick up your pen and live.
ps. There's more I need to say about this but embrace what I've given you so far and hope will begin to unfold.